Jay Oh Bees

Since forever and a day and a half, I have been vigorously seeking new employment or some means of bringing home income. So far, I've got NOTHING. Where I'm at now is really screwing me big time for hours and I don't get but a max of 5 hours a week. Just their way of trying to run off people who question their work ethics. My manager is NEVER in his place when he is needed or not. He just roams around and pops back in every now and then to tell me to do something that requires more than just one person to do and then says I'm not working hard enough! UGGH he really pisses me off. Just because I went to the store manager looking for him he has something personal against me now and is using the EXCUSE that I don't work hard enough. I should stay there in spite just working somewhere else and there because I know he is only trying to force me to resign so I can't collect unemployment. They try to fire people who come to work everyday by not actually FIRING them just so they look good. Those bitches aren't gonna get the satisfaction out of me. So with that said, that is the number one cause of all the stress I've been under latley which has the domino effect of affecting everything else that has been going wrong financially. I have no idea what else to do except apply everywhere imaginable until I get at least an interveiw call which I've been coming up with none since I started 2 months ago! I just don't know what to do and I need to come up with something fast because the bills are piling up like crazy.

It's not supposed to be this way.

I'm probably in a lot of trouble. I was contacted by the insurance company of a person that was involved in my accident. Apparently, they find me at fault and they intend to collect. I unfourtunatley don't have insurance anymore so I don't know what they will do. I just hope they don't call back today because I need some time to get my thoughts together before they drop a huge bomb on me. I really need a job. I'm trying to get in to Graphics Design but the jobs are so far away from me. I need solid jobs soon. I have to gather some things and get another car. I'm not sure how that's going to happen though.

a dream that will be reality...

I will see to it that I make something of myself in this world! I'm goin gto go so far as to travel to California in December to audition at yet another Ford Models open-call. I was invited to Georgia, but it was so little in advance that the tickets to get there was way too much money that I did not have. But I will make it somewhere. Even if it's not Ford, somewhere else. I'm vowing this to myself that by sometime in 2008 I will be making a great living off doing what I love whether it's Graphics Design or Modeling, I WILL do this!

I'm trying to find out if it's illegal for a place of employment to just cut your hours down to zero and not let you go to a department which has hours. That's what Sears is doing to me. I transfered to shoes from jewelry and they won't let me go back. If I go to them and ask that they put me back so I can get hours and they refuse, I won't quit, I'll just wait until they "let me go" I've been there for 2 years no problem, so they really don't HAVE a reason to fire me.

I saw a car that I really liked, 2004 Kia Optima for REALLY cheap! I hope to get it sometime tomorrow or saturday.

I really wish I had friends, but sadly, I don't. They really don't care about me, they don't act like it at least. I'm sure that once I get everything to go as I plan, they'll come around, and it won't even matter anymore. He's not what he made me think he was, he's just another jackass that will kick himself in the future for not treating me right.