I can't do it...

I can't be in love wit 2 people. It's not possible. I'm trying to move on and be with Trav, but somehow I keep ending up back with "VINCE JACKSON". I can't stay away from him no matter how hard I try or how many times I tell myself I'm through with him. The last time we were together I told him that I didn't think we should talk anymore. That was a mistake and I need to tell him that. I feel like I SHOULD be with him because everything is keeping me from being with Trav. The distance, te situations changing... Everytime I get closer, I'm further away. So maybe the reason is because I'm supposed to be with "VINCE JACKSON". I can't reveal his real name because I'm not sure that it's safe to. Even though I think noone reads this stuff, I can't be too careful.

I need him right now...

Lazy Lover...

So I decided to give him another try. The absolute love of my life. I tried to move on but I need to be there for him. I can't run away at a time when he really needs someone. I'm a little worried though since I haven't talked to him today. Last night was very scary and I hope he's ok.

So, I'm still catching up on Heroes and not working. This is b.s. they're not giving me hours nor can I get some in another department like I have been for a while. So all I have left is to sit at home on my fucking thumbs hoping that I get this new job at New York & Co. It looks like I have a chance but we never know. I'm pissed that I can't work and I'm going to starve to death and probably get really deep in debt if I'm not working somewhere. My graphics design really isn't coming through for me so I need a steady job or some form of income to keep myself alive. Try one of the ads on here to help me out, most of them help you too. I'm working on figuring out how to make this site better so hang in there with me.

Here's a pic of my love doing one thing he does best...

it's a love whilrpool...

Work has really been kicking my ass latley. I'm working 40 hrs from 7am to 3:30pm! GOOOOOOD GREIF~_~

Happier news, my boyfriend is moving to Florida and I'm going to an arts and music Festival in November with him :) I'm fed up with like 90% of my friends because whenever I plan something they don't even budge to come out but when they plan something, they expect me to come running? Come on now, how stupid would I look?

On a creative tip, I'm relaunching miserymeat.com, urbanhues.com, and starting lohacosmetics.com. Misery Meat was my sort of mixed blog but I'm not sure if I want to continue with that since I already have a mixed subject blog right here. Urban Hues is my website and graphics design company which means I will be doing that once again. I'm really excited. Loha' Cosmetics is my cosmetics line that I started a few months ago. I just haven't had the time to cook up any makeup but soon, VERY soon.

That's about it for now, hope everyone is having a lovley rest of the summer season and is ready for Fall as I am!