2008 Presidential Election

So I'm stumped on who to vote for. When I was working, I didn't have time to follow politics at all,but now I can. I don't want one-sided bullshit propaganda, I want THE FACTS, something concrete to show me who I should think about voting for. I'm a Democrat,pro-life,anti-war,for lowering taxes for less fortunate,but I'm stuck on making adoptions easier. If that were the case, what if it was so easy that the child went under the parental guidance of a child molester or abusive/neglectful people? Would it not be THAT easy to happen? I really thought about that when I read the Hilary Clinton was working to make happen. I searched and searched but I only get PEOPLE'S OPINIONS on who should be president, not factual evidence. This is what I'm looking for, and if you can provide just that, that would be great! And I have gone to the OFFICIAL Presidential Election website, still haven't found much yet.

Jamie Spears is just a younger Britney Spears

Yep. Little baby, LITERALLY BABY Spears, Jamie Lynn Spears(16),Britney Spears' sister, suspected she was pregnant since she and her 19...19 year old boyfriend Casey Aldridge had obviously been participating in some raw doggie action. So I had to figure out if this was true or not did some searching some sites like AOL say that is in fact pregnant, fisherwy.blogspot.com says "NO,she only THOUGHT that she was" so I checked out perezhilton.com and it just so happens she is! So until we see some negtive tests and no belly gain,we're gonna say that she is. I mean, SHE'S A BABY HERSELF for crying out loud! and AT LEAST she could have waited until 18! On this tip,I'm not a hipocrite, I waited until I was 19 and STILL said no,but apparently that's not in the male vocabulary. I'm just really shocked and I'm thinking she's not going to be so cute anymore either. Once you have a child at a young age, it's DOWWWNNNN hill from there, unless you're superwoman or something equivalent. BYE BYE Zoey 101,though I've never laid eyes on one episode. What sort of message does this send to the little girls that watch that show? It says "It's ok to have over-aged boyfriends when you're under aged,and while you're at it get pregnant if you can!"

Your thoughts?

Jay Oh Bees

Since forever and a day and a half, I have been vigorously seeking new employment or some means of bringing home income. So far, I've got NOTHING. Where I'm at now is really screwing me big time for hours and I don't get but a max of 5 hours a week. Just their way of trying to run off people who question their work ethics. My manager is NEVER in his place when he is needed or not. He just roams around and pops back in every now and then to tell me to do something that requires more than just one person to do and then says I'm not working hard enough! UGGH he really pisses me off. Just because I went to the store manager looking for him he has something personal against me now and is using the EXCUSE that I don't work hard enough. I should stay there in spite just working somewhere else and there because I know he is only trying to force me to resign so I can't collect unemployment. They try to fire people who come to work everyday by not actually FIRING them just so they look good. Those bitches aren't gonna get the satisfaction out of me. So with that said, that is the number one cause of all the stress I've been under latley which has the domino effect of affecting everything else that has been going wrong financially. I have no idea what else to do except apply everywhere imaginable until I get at least an interveiw call which I've been coming up with none since I started 2 months ago! I just don't know what to do and I need to come up with something fast because the bills are piling up like crazy.

charlie brown kwanzaa

HAHAHA! "Charlie Brown you nasty ass nigga, you the only motha fucka that would fuck up they own kwanzaa by not collectin yo' chips that crack hoe lucy was off the hook. Of all the motha fuckas on earth, you the motha fuckest!"

Stress gets the best

Well, most of you know I haven't actually blogged in forever. I've been so stressed out latley that I am speechless. I just have nothing to say right now, really... REALLY. This post sucks!

Pee -Wee's Crack House

It's what REALLY happened to poor old PeeWee. The reason his house and furniture talks to him REVEALED!!!

Heroes S2E09 "Cautionary Tales"

So I've been searching the internet high and low all night for this episode. It sucks that everyone is on PST when I'm on EST time. So that means it's 3am and I STILL haven't given up hope of finding and episode that is online and I don't have to wait on some slow ass download from megaupload or some gay ass torrent site. I usually get my fix on stage6.com but everyone is REALLY slow around here about getting the episode streaming. I promise that if I find one out there, I'll post a link here for any fans.

WEll, finally someone got off their ass and helped us addicts out.
http://heroes-video-blog.blogspot.com/
Veiw it with your LIFE, I know I'll be watching now!

The Writer's strike

Fuckin' greedy asshole writer's are fuckin' up my Heroes intake! I just got word that it will play up to the 11th episode then who knows? Those who don't know why writers strike is because they're all greedy hoes who don't give a shit about fans of their work? Where did this start? When they found out their greedy unthoughtful asses wouldn't get paid extra for internet productions! WTF?! That's cold blooded and I'm pissed! They need to hire ME as a writer. With what I know about Heroes, I could come up with SOMETHING. I have no idea what else could be done about this complete tragedy, it's the only thing keeping me two steps from losing my mind with my friend away and all. I feel like getting my switch blade and cuttin' those mother fuckin' gay ass writers!

So we ask the question, How much DO Television writer's earn anyway? The answer would be $30K PER episode! Not $30K a year, but every FUCKING GODDAMN episode! If I got $30K for everytime I typed a blog, I'd NEVER miss a day and I'd be writing the greatest shit ever. Life probably wouldn't be so bad EVERYDAY, but I'd have SOMETHING to write about because I'd HAVE a life. I wouldn't be consumed with slaving at work and then coming home, to nothing but misery. May I add, slaving at work for NOTHING. I don't even make close to $1500 a month. Not even close! And these assholes are whining because they don't get paid a little more for internet productions? They should have been fired and replaced by robots a long time ago! Who knew that people were this greedy when they found out they could be making more than $30K every...week? Counting that most shows air once a week and that they make 30 grand each episode aired. $120,000 a month $1,440,000 every year! I'm not so hot with math but if I'm right they should die in a fire for their greed. And you know what? Even though it COULD affect one of my favorite shows, they shouldn't get paid a dime! Because who knows what extra they get paid for the box set DVD's purchased and other merch? For ANYONE who supports this strike, can burn right along with them. It's not the shows that gets my blood hot, it's the fact that they are complaining about making more than I'd make in 10 lifetimes right now! And I just don't get it, I really don't. I thought God had something against this sort of thing? Where are the lightining bolts man?! Just kidding about that, but something needs to be done about this.

I think of the strike like this...

If they wanted to make what studio execs make,they should've applied to BE studio exec.if every worker in the U.S. went on strike because they don't make what the managers make? Does it make ANY SENSE AT ALL then?! It's called ECONMICS, apparently, writers aren't required to take that course. If everyone got payed the same amount of money in a feild that that the "higher-ups" get, noone would be motivated to do better, just think of the trouble that would cause? We wouldn't be only worried about rising gas a food prices anymore. INFLATION INFLATION! Ring any bells? It would be like everyone would be out to get everyone's money until there was no money left to give. Society is a "monkey see, monkey do" world. If they see that these very well-off writers can get what THEY want, bagboy's at your local grocery store, the mailman, farmers, car salesmen, factory workers, etc. DO NOT support this strike! There are more grave issues at hand and these people are already rich enough. Will you get a penny of their profits for supporting them? NO! So don't support a clear sin in the eyes of many. Men and women, risk their lives everyday in the war for NOTHING and these clowns are whining about 4 more cents! They focus on the small numbers to make it seem like they make nothing. They say it's so they can pay their mortage and health but they're probably living in luxury and that's why they can't afford it they bit off more than they could chew.

Check out this HILARIOUS satire. No writers were harmed in the making of this clip.

Mi bicicleta roja brillante

So I want a bicycle for christmas. Amongst OTHER things but mainly a shiny red bicycle. I know it's a weird thing for a 23 year old to want, but I REALLY want it. There are plenty of old people things I want too like a sewing machine, and books. soooo... with that said here's my amazon.com wishlist.


And should this list be more expensive than you would like to spend. You can just pitch in a dollar or two towards these gifts!

Lots of ways to make this christmas more enjoyable than this year was for me. You can also keep signing up at inboxdollars which is a totally free thing that can make you money too. I got my first check for 30$ January of this year. It helps me because when you sign up and fill out your profile, I get 5 dollars and it helps you because when you complete your profile you get 5 dollars credit too.

Well, yesterday my closest friend living was sent off to Afghanistan. I can't stop thinking that this is the worst thing that happened all year. Aside of not getting hours at work for that long time and just barley getting them now. Not being able to get my car replacing the wrecked one and not being able to get to work on time when I DO get the small amount of hours that's being given to me. But things will change if I pass this test to be a baggage screener at the airport. No idea how I'll get out there on time everyday, but hopefully, I will find a solution.

NEW!!!Myspace Layout! Gruesome Two-Some

I will code it out later

Tegan and Sara - Duct Tape Dreads Sara

When you feel down and your boyfriend is giving you shit, this happens! lol.

So anyway, the blog mainly consists of Tegan and Sara and my sometimes fucked life. They are the only ones that make it better.

So he's not calling or returning my calls/texts for some odd reason. I don't know what's up with him. We drank together, I may have said some off things but I thought it'd be excusable being under the influence,apparently with boyfriends, this is NOT the case. Please guys out there, don't take shit too seriously if your girlfriend says some off shit to you when she's drunk, she probably doesn't mean it and will forget she even said it the next day. Just let her know what she said, so the mystery may be cleared up!

The Classic "Not Racist" line By Duane "Dog"'s son

Somewhere in recent news, Duane "Dog" of Bounty Hunter made some racist remarks about a woman to his son on the phone. So is he a racist? His son says, "He's got friends that are black and mexican" then he adds a new line "he's even half Indian" lol see that here. So if you ask me what I think, the word "nigger" doesn't really make you racist but it's the context you use it in, and this guy is clearly racist. The way he tells his son that he "can't take that" him(the other son Tucker) dating her, the black woman. And that he can't be in his house if he's (his other son) is dating her. So, tell-tale that this guy is scum, and here's a phone conversation between him and the son that's dating this black woman. But that Don Imus was funny, and I don't take offense to that remark, "Those are some nappy headed hoes there". Then we see fox news and an "apology" here. The end was classic with one of the news casters pointing out his mullet. No pictures yet but you can just veiw the vids to get a better understanding of what's going on. I don't know the defending son's name but I feel sorry that he's taking up for him. Clearly, he doesn't know any better and had been brought up that way and was born a sheep and is more apt to take on the actions of someone else he looks up to.

I understand it as being a private conversation and that it was rather fucked up for his son to tape him for 1.5 million, I understand freedom of speech and all that stuff. If it weren't for that, I couldn't write in this blog with things that I feel. But it's just the fact that it's out there that sickens me. And that this guy has a huge show and he feels that way about someone his son cares about. This blog won't change a thing, for one, noone reads it, two I don't have any power over what happens. I'm just putting my feelings into words on my own personal space. I feel he should be punished by whatever force there is out there that you believe in and not by the hands of man on earth. I don't beleive in anything really,I only believe there is something out there that reprimands or rewards us for everything we do. So with that said, this and Dog shouldn't even be a memory after this. But we have no control over what takes place.

Tegan and Sara - Feelings Report

The funniest part on Tegan and Sara's DVD "The Con"! Done on My birthday. Tegan has trouble expressing her feelings and just loses it! Go buy the DVD!
You should also try out their "It's not fun, don't do it" DVD for last year's "So Jealous" funny funny things on there as well. If you haven't heard of TRQ&SKQ, then check out teganandsara.com and youtube around too!

Rocks on the roof

So I can tell you, that I am extremly bored. It's 4:18 am and I slept my whole day away. Long time since I'd actually slept but it's the only thing I had to do today. I got rid of my wrecked vehicle and got 50$ for it. I'm about to chop all my hair off TOOODAY because I hate hair now. I'm thinking there's some sort of explaination as to why I hate my hair now, but there's not. I wanted to grow it back out but I just don't like it anymore. I'm not sure if I look better with short hair or not but it's just so thick right now, I really don't care it will probably give me a fro if I do cut it so I'm looking out for that as well.

I'm recording some new songs and I will post a link here so you may hear it when I'm done. other than that, nothing.

Everything but food

Damn I'm pretty hungry! I dunno what to cook. I'm thinking potato scalops with cheeeeeeeeese mmm. Well, it's starting to cool off here in Florida. It's not Indiana November, but I mean at least it's not 10,000 degrees outside anymore. I'd acutally like to swim right now, if I knew how :). So I put up a counter to prove a point to myself that noone reads this shit but me. If I have a blog-stalker, I will know. I will know where to find you and hide in your closet and eat your clothes and shoes.

SOOOO I'm working on blogging up some art that I do in my VERY spare time, in hopes that I lie to myself and people really DO read this blabber! SOOO If you do, please make me feel more speshal than I really am and post a comment. Just to let me know that I have friends that really care about my mindless jibber jabber!

PEACE

It's not supposed to be this way.

I'm probably in a lot of trouble. I was contacted by the insurance company of a person that was involved in my accident. Apparently, they find me at fault and they intend to collect. I unfourtunatley don't have insurance anymore so I don't know what they will do. I just hope they don't call back today because I need some time to get my thoughts together before they drop a huge bomb on me. I really need a job. I'm trying to get in to Graphics Design but the jobs are so far away from me. I need solid jobs soon. I have to gather some things and get another car. I'm not sure how that's going to happen though.

I can't do it...

I can't be in love wit 2 people. It's not possible. I'm trying to move on and be with Trav, but somehow I keep ending up back with "VINCE JACKSON". I can't stay away from him no matter how hard I try or how many times I tell myself I'm through with him. The last time we were together I told him that I didn't think we should talk anymore. That was a mistake and I need to tell him that. I feel like I SHOULD be with him because everything is keeping me from being with Trav. The distance, te situations changing... Everytime I get closer, I'm further away. So maybe the reason is because I'm supposed to be with "VINCE JACKSON". I can't reveal his real name because I'm not sure that it's safe to. Even though I think noone reads this stuff, I can't be too careful.

I need him right now...

Lazy Lover...

So I decided to give him another try. The absolute love of my life. I tried to move on but I need to be there for him. I can't run away at a time when he really needs someone. I'm a little worried though since I haven't talked to him today. Last night was very scary and I hope he's ok.

So, I'm still catching up on Heroes and not working. This is b.s. they're not giving me hours nor can I get some in another department like I have been for a while. So all I have left is to sit at home on my fucking thumbs hoping that I get this new job at New York & Co. It looks like I have a chance but we never know. I'm pissed that I can't work and I'm going to starve to death and probably get really deep in debt if I'm not working somewhere. My graphics design really isn't coming through for me so I need a steady job or some form of income to keep myself alive. Try one of the ads on here to help me out, most of them help you too. I'm working on figuring out how to make this site better so hang in there with me.

Here's a pic of my love doing one thing he does best...

Heroes

My new-found time passer is watching Heroes from season one to current. It's an awesome show and if you haven't taken pleasure in watching it, I suggest you go here to catch up!

So I've finally gotten approved for financing on a vehicle through a company called Drive Time. Anyone in the market for a car but not confident their credit is good enough for financing should check them out if you're having trouble finding a trustworthy company to finance through. There are a lot all over the internet, but they're not garaunteed to be legit. So aside of Drive Time, I would suggest you shopped around at your on financial institution and well known banks as well as Drive Time. It's not always best to finance through the dealer though. Check out the places listed on auto.yahoo.com and use financing straight at the dealership as your last resort.

So I will be giving much more financial advice once my situation is straight. I'm on my way to completing that goal, so keep reading and I will try to help everyone else out through my learning experiences.

Baby break dance

lol. this is cute effing cute, i promise!

Trichomoniasis

trick-uh-muh-nahy-uh-sis
1.
a sexually transmitted disease typically asymptomatic in men and resulting in vaginitis with a copious, frothy discharge and itching in women, caused by a trichomonad Trichomonas vaginalis.

So I'm being accused of giving this to the only guy I've been sleeping with latley. This, I've heard clears up on it's own in around 14 days and I've been with the guy for at least 4 months. So I haven't a clue how a "Gave it to him". Now on top of legalites, I must worry about finding somewhere cheaper than the usual clinic I get my 6 months testing at and get tested for this shit. I haven't the SLIGHTEST idea where I can go that it's free. Because I don't want to pay and end up not having it at all and he just picked it up somewhere else and thought since we're together that he can just pin it on me. We had unprotected sex twice but this was faaaaaaaaar in the beginning. The last person before that was an ex a month before us. So I'm lost at this point.

I've got to find a way to get money too since paypal likes to hold it up for 10,000 days. They TAKE money owed FAST but when you're trying to do a tranfer, psshh you can forget about that shit for 3 weeks! UGHHH, everything is so frustrating right now and this is the only place I can vent since everyone else is wrapped up in more serious situations. Well, the only one true friend I have is at least, everyone else only cares about themselves and they excpect me to listen to their ranting but I don't because they don't care about mine.

Tegan and Sara: Umbrella Cover (2007)

I thought this was really cool they covered this song. I love Tegan and Sara, and they rocked this song better than Rhianna :)

a dream that will be reality...

I will see to it that I make something of myself in this world! I'm goin gto go so far as to travel to California in December to audition at yet another Ford Models open-call. I was invited to Georgia, but it was so little in advance that the tickets to get there was way too much money that I did not have. But I will make it somewhere. Even if it's not Ford, somewhere else. I'm vowing this to myself that by sometime in 2008 I will be making a great living off doing what I love whether it's Graphics Design or Modeling, I WILL do this!

I'm trying to find out if it's illegal for a place of employment to just cut your hours down to zero and not let you go to a department which has hours. That's what Sears is doing to me. I transfered to shoes from jewelry and they won't let me go back. If I go to them and ask that they put me back so I can get hours and they refuse, I won't quit, I'll just wait until they "let me go" I've been there for 2 years no problem, so they really don't HAVE a reason to fire me.

I saw a car that I really liked, 2004 Kia Optima for REALLY cheap! I hope to get it sometime tomorrow or saturday.

I really wish I had friends, but sadly, I don't. They really don't care about me, they don't act like it at least. I'm sure that once I get everything to go as I plan, they'll come around, and it won't even matter anymore. He's not what he made me think he was, he's just another jackass that will kick himself in the future for not treating me right.

235 GD dollars!

That's what my ticket is for. And I can't pay it! It's a real shame. I have to figure out how to get all the money I have in one place so I can pay it all soon. I may take three days or so since processing is a bitch! But I gots to do it. After I've payed 34$ dollars to take a class that only saved me 4 dollars to keep this off my record, I get a postcard from a school that only charges $13.fuckin'90! You can imagine how frustrated I am finding out the school I payed 34 $ for only covered one ticket for some reason, what I bitch.

For anyone in the future that has to take ANY driving courses DON'T go anywhere else until you look at lowestpricetrafficschool.com . This is only because I don't want anyone to catch the bullshit I catch from not having much help. I'm in a the biggest hole ever, I hope I can get out. Oh, little note, the school is really 19.95$ plus certificate processing fee and whatever state you're in assesement fee. But it's still cheaper!

I want a better blog!

I want to do an actual layout for this thing, but I haven't quite caught on to this coding. Jebus it's EVERYWHERE!

So I'm trying to NOT get arrested in my life. I have to go pay a traffic citation today but I've no idea how much of a discount I will get on it. Hopefully, it's pretty cheap 'cause I'm broke! REALLY REALLY broke. I only have 200$ left but it's all over the place, not just under one account. I feel like I'm married I have 3, count them THREE fucking accounts to keep my over-spending ass from over spending! THEN on top of that, I have 3 GD credit cards! I'm killing myself, really. I feel like some shopping online today though.

He's supposed to get sent to afghanistan, why? I dunno. I why send a navy person? There's no fuckin' water in Afghanistan! GB really makes me want to kick his ass now! Have you ever watched any of his confrences? It's hilarity I tell you! Try to watch it without throwing up, and you'll see it's like fucking comedy central without Jon Stewart. That man is a fucking genius by the way! I love his shows, always so true but so funny! Colbert's not so bad either.

it's how it looks...

Yeah, the name has changed. I've decided that right now, modeling probably won't work out like I want it to. I'm really nervous and afraid of what the big dogs will say. Yeah, I'm still planning the trip to cali to audition for Ford Models, but decided to give up the blog for modeling in particular. It will just be my rants and raves and a feeeeeewwwww tidbits from my personal life. Noone fucking reads this anyways. So it will be like a clossssse friend whom I can call out to, write/type out to tell them my deepest darkest secrets.

With that said.... I shall begin.

I love him, no matter how much I hate that fact, I love him. Why? I couldn't answer that if I was given a million dollars and the family I've always wanted to do so. I do shit for him that I wouldn't DARE let anyone else do nor do I enjoy it. I love when I'm able to help HIM out so that maybe one day, he will turn around and tell me he loves me. It's fucking crazy as hell! I don't know what's happening to me. Maybe I'm going crazy, and maybe I'm just becoming soft or like puddy in his hands. I have a sore throat, I can't relate it to anything else. My left shoulder hurts from the previous accident, resurfaced by the night WE had. My head hurts, my stomach is turning. I feel like taking one of the left over meds I have to stop all this pain. But I'm scared, my stomach seems like it's grown a little and it hurts to lie on my stomach and it feels really funny to lie on my left side(these are the two most comfortable postions to sleep in, usually). Sometimes I feel very weak movement, but it could be my imagination. I took a test when I speculated that pregnancy was a possibility... negative.

Then I began to worry like it was a more serious condition. I gave attention back to having a cyst or had formed cervical cancer. I had a pap smear(what a disgusting term) and it came out abnormal. Meaning that I could have polyps or HPV which could turn into cervical cancer. I felt like it was growing, that it's too late for surgery or modern medicine. I developed a different eating habit... I eat Krystal burgers. I know you're saying "You and everyone else!" but I'm saying, I'm a fucking vegetarian! I have been for 2 years, red meats,and poltry make me sick, even when I wasn't vegetarian. But for some reason Krystals has no effect and the more I eat it, the more I crave it. I also crave soda, which I hate. I hate the painful fizzing it causes in my ears and throat, I hate all the sugar it contains(too much sugar makes me really sick). So I can't put my finger on what the hell is up?! I went to the dr. not a full physical but I just had some questions and they answered it's nothing, but you may want to have another pap. I am very uncomfortable with it, but it seems the only way to lay my worries to rest. Speaking of rest, I sleep more than usual. Right now, I'm forcing myself to stay awake to write this.

I have some much debt and so many worries. I don't want to think of having anything else added to my plate. I'm only 23 years old, and I'm already headed down a bad path. I have to stop it before it's too late...

America, the criminally insane!

And they think something is wrong with OTHER countries...



So I was toiling around on myspace TV, and I come accross this video about a missing woman. Naturally, being a caring individual, I clicked on it, watched it for about 3 seconds then went, "is this a fucking joke?!" Apparently, it is. The profile, blogspot, and video for "Hope is missing" is in fact an online reality GAME about a missing woman named Hope Wilcott. And seeing how many missing women,men, and children there are in REAL LIFE, I think this is fucking sick and the "game master" should probably go jump off the golden gate bridge.



Mrs. Sherlock Holmes (me) googled on it and found these facts. I think it's what's wrong with America, they take serious situations and make money, entertainment, and fame out of it. It's lame and it's sadistic. At least countries like Iraq, Iran, and Afghanistan don't take serious things like missing people and killing like it's a joke or something to make profit of.

Happenings...

My modeling portfolio is almost done! It's amazing that it was started on a week ago and it's already a about 89% finished! The only thing is it needs current photos. There's a way there that I can be contacted now. My Desktop is going really slow now for some reason, so I have to transfer a lot of my files to this computer(my laptop). I think I need another upgrade, I may just rebuild it all together (yes, I'm a nerd and I can do most of the work).

I'm also trying to get word out there that I do makeup and wardrobe design/coordination. So don't forget to remember that :) A very short blog for the day, hope you don't mind, I'm running on 4hours of sleep!!!

F*CK CHRIS COCKER!

Who the fuck is this monstrosity that appeared on my computer screen 3 days ago? Some confused peice of perpetrating SHIT named CHRIS CROCKER! I'm not on the "republican" side, being a fucking sorry excuse for a human has NOTHING to do with what political party you belong to. I'm a woman, YOU sir are not!

I'm fed up with seeing these guys who try to be us. They will NEVER be us! They will never birth a child, have a period, get turned down for a predominatley male job, very few men get raped, few get abused by their spouse, and they damn sure can't be as DIVA as a REAL WOMAN can. Be gay all day, I really don't care about that. The issue is when you put on makeup and a dress and think that classifies you as a woman or a DIVA. Let me break it down to you what a DIVA really is....

Diva is Latin for GODDESS. Since when has a GODDESS ever been a male? DIVA is a WOMAN of rare, outstanding talent, NOT a man TRYING to be a woman! A DIVA is a glamourous and successful FEMALE performer or personality. Just because you can put on makeup, and DRESS as a woman doesn't mean you ARE or can ever be us.

ALWAYS IMITATED, NEVER DUPLICATED,

JADE STRANGE

it's a love whilrpool...

Work has really been kicking my ass latley. I'm working 40 hrs from 7am to 3:30pm! GOOOOOOD GREIF~_~

Happier news, my boyfriend is moving to Florida and I'm going to an arts and music Festival in November with him :) I'm fed up with like 90% of my friends because whenever I plan something they don't even budge to come out but when they plan something, they expect me to come running? Come on now, how stupid would I look?

On a creative tip, I'm relaunching miserymeat.com, urbanhues.com, and starting lohacosmetics.com. Misery Meat was my sort of mixed blog but I'm not sure if I want to continue with that since I already have a mixed subject blog right here. Urban Hues is my website and graphics design company which means I will be doing that once again. I'm really excited. Loha' Cosmetics is my cosmetics line that I started a few months ago. I just haven't had the time to cook up any makeup but soon, VERY soon.

That's about it for now, hope everyone is having a lovley rest of the summer season and is ready for Fall as I am!

How many idiots does it take to break a heart?

Not very many.

Well here are some hilarities from this past weekends bday party of hilariously drunken ME.

Holey Jeans?

Ok, there's a right way and a WRONG way to wear pre-destroyed denim.

The right way...

Myspace star Christina Dolce is the MASTER of the destroyed denim, literally. She launched her own denim line entitled DESTROYED DENIM . She is totally owning the punk-ish/rock look!





Last but not least people, this is the WRONG WAY!

Hogan DOESN'T know best when it comes to destroyed denim. I don't know who told Brooke Hogan it was ok to do this and wear it on stage but her dad Hulk Hogan should have pile-drived whoever it was. Beautiful girl, great music, BAD cutter.

So if you go destroying your old jeans, just remember to leave in the seat and the crotch, believe me, it's NOT cute or sexy. It makes you look like a 2 dollar stripper on some heavy coke. If you want stirrups go buy a pair, don't make them out of your jeans, PLEASE! You don't have to go buying destroyed jeans either, you can like I said do it yourself, just make sure you grab a guideline or a responsible supervisor to cut for you kids.

LOL iPhone!

To all the jackasses that slept in front of apple and cingular stores, SUCK ON THIS! iPhone has cut it's retail price 200$, you know what you can do with 200$? You can buy an upscale prostitute, get groceries to last one month, or you can pay your ridulously high cingular phone bill! Oh, you could also feed your kids!

So in turn, they have offered the suckers a 100$ store credit? Ok, you knock 200 bucks off of a product and give the ducks that bought one for 600$ a 100$ STORE CREDIT?! That's just fucking smart! They are still making away with the 600$ your dumbass just dished out either way. You're putting the money right back in their pockets, I see a protest or something happening in your future. I'm wondering now how many of the smarter crew are going to purchase it now. Now you will see grandmas with the phone you thought you'd be one of a limted few to have. I mean, that's why you go for the expensive things right? Because you know that only the people who have 600$ to flush down the toilet to get a phone from a shit company that wastes trees on their itemized paper billing, is so you can stand out and say "I have an iPhone, yes, I spent 600$ on it and I pay 80$ a month for the MOST dropped calls in the U.S.! I'm so smart!"

So, with that said, grandmama, put down your knitting needle, iPhone retails for 399$ !

I do what I do...

Not much. Trying to pay off these damn bills and save up for college in January, I will not be working at that time so I can focus completly on passing and doing my work. I'm writing notes for a possible book? And trying to stay sane while "some guy" ropes my heart around. I have given up on a lot of things in the recent weeks, things that I see aren't taking off the way I had hoped for. I'm still sticking with modeling and Cereal and Milk Designs, blogging too. I want to have an awesome xmas and I'm getting a prepaid visa card to keep my butt out of hot water for a change.

Sites I currently update:

Cereal & Milk (Myspace/Cafepress)

Jade Strange(Model Portfolio/Blog)

Myspace

Sites I plan to update/renew:

Misery Meat

Loha' Cosmetics

Urban Hues

My Deviant Art

My Boundless Gallery

This is only once I've paid all of these ridiculous bills I have which will take approximatley 3 months if I play my cards right. The book I mentioned will be written in the process. I'm writing notes for it like I've said. I won't say what it's about but it will help a lot of people I know including myself.

About my music, I'm ITP of recording for the new project Strange Feeble Mind former Geisha Dolls. sFM is a indie rock/electronica solo project as Geisha Dolls but with a different sound, more rock than electronica.

Some speculations about me

I'm NOT lesbian

I'm NOT pregnant

I'm NOT dating "Vince Jackson" aka "Vagina Juice"

I'm NOT a bitch, unless you bring it upon yourself.

In hopes that clears some smoke, there you have it!

Burlesque

I could only send them one by one from my phone, I will gather them all together later and put it all in one post.

This is from my very first burlesque show attendance, it could have been better but I had a lot of fun. I forgot my good camera so we just have to make do with the shitty phone cam. This was taken @ The French Quarter on Friday August 30,2007

Burlesque

Some pix from a burlesque show on friday. sry i left my camera. deal with the shitty phone cam.

In jeans

Here are some outfits/tops I like to wear with a pair of jeans I got from forever 21

A rainbow,butterfly,trees, and clouds tank I like I purchased from Forever 21 for about 8 dollars. Because of the orange and yellow I like to funk it up with some yellow patent pleather pumps you can find just about anywhere, I got mine from a store called Body Central.

A hawaiian style tube top dress I got from forever 21 for 20 dollars or more. I decided since it's hard to wear this on a windy day, I put jeans under it. To dress it up for partying or clubing, I like to wear a pair of lime green sandal heels I bought from payless for only 7 dollars! To dress it down, I wear green tennis shoes, the same color as the dress with white in the shoes like in the hibiscus flowers.

Just a plain shopping outfit. With a plain white tee with gold eyelets on the sleeves. I got it from Sears on clearance it's a Personal Identity shirt. With a black pyramid belt I got from hot topic and a pair of black flats I got from hot topic as well. I like to wear my leopard print braclet I've had for a long time to finish off with a rock look, and a white headband with black star print I got from hot topic. And I cuff the bottom to keep them from dragging in the flats plus it couples for the rock look as well.

Uh guys? NO!

I think I have had the worst of luck with guys (not men, but BOYS apparently).

THE LATEST:

So I met this guy and he strikes up a nice convo. Then, the famous line... "why don't you call me so we can get to know each other better". Get out the DIVA bat and start swinging. So I did, but I texted him maybe a month or so later and that starts the fact that he has my number to call me back, but only after I took a slight bump from a previous, I will get to that one later. So he calls me back, not on the number I just texted, another number.

THE THOUGHT IN A FABULOUS DIVA'S MIND:

Maybe he's at home and doesn't want to use his cell in the house. Some companies aren't so great with keeping a signal in the house, and some phones are just the problem, but don't let him in just yet, you still have a little investigating to do.

So we talked forrrrr approximatley 10 or 20 minutes....

I tell him I'm probably going to the movies alone friday, what movie he asks... HALLOWEEN! "Can I go with you?" NO! I say, but not in a mean way, just to let him know that I don't need an escort, I am my own escort. I make the heads turn and I make the perfect entrance alone. But in my mind I say, try calling another day and see what happens, Friday is a while away and you don't currently have a date. Which I had been avoiding for quite some time. So tonight I called, actually called this time and no answer. Calls me back on ANOTHER phone number, not the cell, not the one from the previous night, a TOTALLY DIFFERENT NUMBER!!!! SOUND THE DIVA ALARM AND RAISE ALL WEAPONS! When questioned abou this obvious attempt to hide something, his response is, "What's wrong with having 3 CELL phones?" I have 3 phones but I only use one, and when I'm giving someone fortunate enough to have my number, I give them the one I use. This triggers the questioning and investigation. "Are you in the navy?" should be the question on every woman's list, not just for a few DIVAS but all women in general should ask. Why? Because navy guys try to be slick, some are married and are just stationed where they are at and their wives stay behind in their hometowns. Some could leave at any given moment, even when you two are a great couple, 6 month cruises are torture, take it from a girl who has seen a few good navy men go. That's pretty much all I had dated for a while I broke some hearts and some broke mine.

THE ANSWER:

"I served my time and got out". How long I ask. "5 years". I ask "what do you do now?" "Can I call you back tomorrow?" I say "NO, you just seem too suspicious for my tastes". He hangs up. Believe me, he WON'T be calling back because he knows that I know well enough that he is no good. I mean from the beginning he was no good since I warned him that I was trouble on two feet and he was "ok" with that.


So with that, I get to see Halloween and watch it to it's entirety with no interruptions. I'm ok with that, I hate going to the movies with a guy, on a date, you are always interrupted or distracted from watching it. I love myself too much to let my datelessness take over my intelligence. I can get a date, I'm just really not looking for one.

The "previous" I mentioned is now a good friend of mine but NOT dating material. Really not much to say, he has a lot of secrets that I've figured out but he's never owned up to them or denied them. We are just really good matches wanting different things. We're mentally intuned to a certain extent, though he's a little "blond", not physical blond, he's a black guy, the first I ever wanted to be with, he's a good friend. Not the type you probably think, but a friend I can talk to when I feel lonley or bored. Some navy guys are good, but bad at the same time.


Just watch out whatever you do, and keep the light in your brain on at all times, even when it's going good.

I can't explaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaain it

So, I have nothing to blog, I mean NOTHING!!!

That looks like a mugshot. I hate that bra, it's not for tight shirts and I like my shirts TIGHT. Those pants cost me 11$ on clearance at Forever21 plus the necklace was from there as well. There was a brown pair I thought of getting but I put it back last minute. Just so you know, I'm STILL trying not to shop, but it's tempting...

I actually really like this one.

Tuesday is the day, I get some REAL pics done and get REAL money for them. I'm excited! @_@

My profile pic died...

Well, I did what blogger said and posted a pic on my blog then linked to it in my profile and then deleted the post and not the image to have it hosted and now I'm an upper left-hand corner red x!! :( I never asked to be that. So I'm going to just leave a pic on a post to get it right.

So I haven't gotten around to doing any more photos because of the shoot coming up on tuesday. I really don't have anything to wear and currently am on shopping probation. :( I guess it's a good thing since I hate shopping but love to buy stuff. I know that makes no sense but that's how I really feel.

So there's this contest with Ford Models that ends September 3rd at 12am. It's called "In your Wildest Jeans". Basically, you send in photos of some outfits worn with jeans, if you win, you get a flight to NYC to lunch with peeps from Parson school of Design and a photoshoot. Most desired prize would be the 1000$ giftcard to Express! If you're intrested enter here. Make SURE you read the contest details and rules so that you completely understand what it's about and what you have to do. I will be entering soon too, I wouldn't want to miss out on a chance.

HAVE A GREAT DAY!

Cutest Outfits!

So, with my fashion design personality in mind, I decided to show you girly girls some fashion must-haves for this coming fall! Mainly for us Florida/California girls who can still get away with a little less layering in the early and mid fall.

Style 1:

Top: Forever21 $22.80
Accessories:Forever21 $5.80
Pants:Forever21 $22.80
Shoes:Wetseal $26.50


That's it for now, my internet is messing up today. >:(

Self Photo Shoot

So in my recent attempts to land a photoshoot, I decided to have my own with my new sony cybershot DSC-H7. I haven't mastered the use of it yet (lighting, angles, etc.) but I'm working on it.





HERE IS ONE PHOTO I DUG UP FROM THE FRENZY! Be forewarned, there is some but not much nudity, you can't SEE anything but just a warning

Please do not attempt to redistrobute this photo in any way! It's on THIS site and it stays on THIS site! Unless you are willing to pay for it, I'd suggest you not take it.

BTW, I do have a potential job lined up for next week getting 120$ an hr hopefully they know my rights and give me copies to share :)